A medium to express what i think i want to express

Shattered October 19, 2012

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Time is clicking, years is passing.

The new bundle of joy keep coming,

Looking at them makes me so soothing,

Though i could not deny deep inside me, it’s devastating.




Shocked October 12, 2012

Filed under: A mi alrededor — juzburself @ 3:06 pm
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I was shocked when she told me he did that,

I tried my best to find the correct words to say,

I was tring to give her the best advice to ease her,

I felt so helpless over here listening to her pain.

Why? Why did you do this to her?

You are such a good man,

God gave you a beautiful baby of your own,

Please think of them, they are the one who’ll be going to be with you forever,

And to the b**ch, if you consider yourself a woman, then be a human,

You scratched my friend once, you’ll get worst later,

If you think you still have your pride, then stop selling yourself to him,

You will never know what will happen in the future,

So try to understand a woman’s feeling if you don’t want to be hurt,

Don’t be too cheap by stealing others property,

Use your brain if you have one,yah.

Allah always look upon us. Do remember that.




Thank You October 9, 2012

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Served you right dear manipulator.

Allah knows the best.

You may try to cheat my family, but He protects us from your evil wishes.


I got another job offer.

I want this badly but  my hearts said the opposite.

I will keep doing my Istikhara (the istikhara is a prayer that Allah guide you towards that which is best (khayr) for you. If you do the prayer of guidance (istikhara) with the proper manners, the most important of which is to truly consign the matter to Allah and suspend your own inclinations, then Allah will make events unfold in the direction that is the best for your worldly and next-worldly affairs).http://qa.sunnipath.com/issue_view.asp?ID=1056


I’m feeling better as the maniac is not around.

But i do not know what will happen tomorrow.

Anyhow, Allbert Einstein asked us to “Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning”.


Organisation did a lot of bad things to us.

Until now, they still put us in the middle..we can’t move forward or backward.

Curse you for being so unprofessional on dealing the yesteryears issue.

It is such a shame to watch you digging all of the evidences to charge us.

Yet your name was mentioned in all the evidences.

How astonishing!


I have my support group now.

No matter how you want to pull me down, more people will pull me up.

You might turn me into a Hulk, but i won’t  step on you because i don’t want my feet to be dirty.


I’m reading more books now.

And whenever i’m feeling disturb, i have this medium to pour my feeling.

I’m trying to be a better person by washing away all my vengeance.

Because having a baby will be my top priority now.



Pain October 3, 2012

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I feel pain,because i thought i’ve make them happy.

I feel pain,because i thought i’ve given them everything.

I feel pain, because i thought i’ve light up their life.

I feel pain,because i failed to satisfy their needs.

I feel pain,because i failed to provide more to them.

I feel pain,to see others keep manipulating them.

I feel pain, because others would pray for them to fall.

I feel pain,because i could not stop this idiots from disturbing them.

I feel pain,because i wish i could give them what they want.

I feel pain,because i realise i never make them happy.

I feel pain,because i only afford to give them a worthless thing.

I feel pain,because i failed to give them a comfortable life.

I feel pain,because i’m crying silently now as i’m helpless to do anything.

I feel pain,because i know they will have trouble in the future.

I feel pain,because i know the idiots will keep disturbing them.

I feel pain,because in the end they will realise that they are spending on the unnecessary things.

I feel pain, because by then it will be too late to regret.

Ya Allah,

I’m so hurt now. I know You know how hurt i am now.

It’s so hard for me to give them everything that i’ve given to them.

I hardly lavish myself with the things that i dream to have because they are my priority.

How i wish i could see them live happily, enjoying their days with whatever they have now.

But i was wrong, i was so wrong. It hurts me so much.

Ya Allah

Please let them live life happily and gratefully.

Please protect them from all the evils and the bad things.



Sad October 1, 2012

Filed under: A mi alrededor — juzburself @ 9:37 am
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She’s in her poor health now,

All she wants… is to be with her children, brothers and sisters,

Sadly, nobody seems to be attentive to her,

They keep pointing fingers on the caused instead of giving her a solution,

I don’t understand how can they be so cruel,

One of them giving the excuse to celebrate a Royal Highness birthday,

My thought is who is this Royal Highness?

You don’t even have a blood ties with them,

Why are you slaving yourself for them?

No wonder all your kids are worthless,

One of them is playing words in FB to show the worry,

I don’t think there is a necessity to do that, because what she needs is your presence,

You have to be there, talk to her, ask for forgiveness,

Others were saying that they are poor, can’t renew the road tax, no papers in their wallet,

Yet, they were boasting on using the touch screen phone,

What a shame. Boasting on something, yet they don’t owe anything,

Instead of trying to wash their sins, they are finding a whole lot of excuse on her disease,

What if this is their last time to be with her?

What if this is their final chance to treat her nicely?

She doesn’t ask much, just come and pay her a visit,

Listen to her yesteryears story,

Even a queen will be the last priority now,

Curse you to be a slave to a stranger rather then being with her,

Excuse for not having a spare time or transport is now a lame excuse,

But they never realise about this,

They seems to be carried away with their so called busy world,

But the weirdest thing is i’ve never seen them satisfy with their life,

― Mitch Albom in his book For One More Day quoted “Have you ever lost someone you love and wanted one more conversation, one more chance to make up for the time when you thought they would be here forever? If so, then you know you can go your whole life collecting days, and none will outweigh the one you wish you had back.”