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Selfish March 28, 2012

Filed under: A mi alrededor — juzburself @ 9:13 am
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All life demands struggle. Those who have everything given to them become lazy, selfish, and insensitive to the real values of life. The very striving and hard work that we so constantly try to avoid is the major building block in the person we are today- Pope Paul VI

It’s true that we need to struggle in life. But this time around, i felt so down. People don’t recognised the effort that my staff and i gave all this while. And we’ve been treated like a rubbish.  It’s so sad to see how people change. They said A in front of you, and they said B with another person. In the end it’s all part of their planning. They wanted to trap you. I felt like a mouse searching for a cheese, and the end the mouse will be capture in the mousetrap with it’s cheese. That is my everyday life now. Nothing that i do will bring a benefit to me. Everything is so confused.

It’s very funny when you work in one organisation, but you can’t communicate with each other. And you have to ask permission to talk with the third party….in the end where do you stand in that organisation? What is your share in that organisation?

If everything has been decided for you, i was wondering….why do they need me in this organisation? why did i go to school? And what is my degree worth for?

An institution or reform movement that is not selfish, must originate in the recognition of some evil that is adding to the sum of human suffering, or diminishing the sum of happiness-Clara Barton.That is where i am now….I can’t share my ideas, i’m wasting my time and waiting for the instruction day by day…i don’t feel a challenge at all. i feel like an idiot now because i can’t polish my knowledge, i ‘m not learning anything new rather then bad mouthed on other people….When will i improve my knowledge and skills? Or should i be a selfish person and stab others in order for me to step up? Ralph Waldo Emerson once saidEvery experiment, by multitudes or by individuals, that has a sensual and selfish aim, will fail“.

And i love what Mahatma Gandhi said on Seven Deadly Sins:

Wealth without work
Pleasure without conscience
Science without humanity
Knowledge without character
Politics without principle
Commerce without morality
Worship without sacrifice.

Wow….Very inspiring. This quotes keep me breathing day by day…





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Caring for Some1 Who Cares March 26, 2012

Filed under: A mi alrededor — juzburself @ 8:47 am

Been busy lately….I just recover from a viral fever. I think i know why suddenly i got a fever….I’m not happy..i’m very upset…very upset….=( I felt so depressed but not until i want to sell my own flesh and blood…( i juz received an email about a lady who want to sell off her daughter due to depression)..People are struggling to get a baby, you want to throw your own flesh and blood…..use your brain to THINK!!!!

Anyway, back to my story….i’m trying so hard everyday to enjoy my working life…but i don’t feel like i have that energy yet…I don’t like so many things here…i hate those hypocrites people..m trying to turn this negative force to a positive force like i use to do…but i failed. This is a great challenge, but when there are so many things ‘under the table’…it became a different story already….Astagfirullah.

Let’s skip about that lame episode….now m staying with my grandma because her maid just ended her contract. So, in the process of finding a new maid, my husband, my sisters and i will be staying with her….Yeaayyyyyy. At least it ease me a bit because she can teach me to cook, i can make her happy by accompany her and the most important…..i can forget about work while doing this routine..

I would love to learn her recipe during my stay here….i will try to utilise my time here and be a good cook for my husband…hehhehehe. First, i hope to learn how to do Daging Rendang Dadi (Dadi’s Fried Beef).

Cousins, Aunties and Uncle….don’t worry and think so much. We have fun doing this chores because she does most of the work, we just keep her company=)

Caring about others, running the risk of feeling, and leaving an impact on people, brings happiness.
Harold Kushner

Caring for our seniors is perhaps the greatest responsibility we have. Those who walked before us have given so much and made possible the life we all enjoy.
John Hoeven


Quotes of The Day March 19, 2012

Filed under: Just Be Yourself — juzburself @ 7:28 am

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret to
getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into
small manageable tasks and then starting on the first one.”
~Mark Twain~


Quotes of The Day March 15, 2012

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“There are thousands of causes for stress, and one antidote to stress is self-expression. That’s what happens to me every day. My thoughts get off my chest, down my sleeves and onto my pad.” -Garson Kanin


I’m Free Again

Filed under: Just Be Yourself — juzburself @ 1:16 am

Yeayyy…tomorrow is my off day… this week i’ve 3 days to ease my stress and be with my family and relatives=)

My husband and i will be boarding tonight to sent our parents to perform umrah. Mama, Papa we will du’a for both of you to have a safe journey, be in a good health throughout the umrah.

And today is my 1 step closer either to disaster or to success…i don’t know.. I’m trying so hard to ease my stress now…Do you know how bad stress can affect you?

The effects of stress (Source:http://www.myoptumhealth.com)
Stress can have effects throughout your body on both your physical and mental health. It can affect:

  • Digestion. Stress hormones slow the release of stomach acid and interfere with how well the stomach can empty itself. This can cause stomachaches. These same hormones cause the colon to work faster and may lead to diarrhea.
  • Heart, brain and blood vessels. High levels of the stress hormone cortisol increase your heart rate and your blood pressure. Cortisol can also raise your cholesterol levels. These factors raise your risk for heart attacks and strokes.
  • Immune system. Normally, your immune system responds to infections by releasing chemicals that aid in the healing process. The stress response weakens your immune system, slowing wound healing and making you more likely to get colds and infections.
  • Weight. Cortisol makes you crave fats and carbohydrates, which can cause you to gain weight. Cortisol also makes you more likely to put on weight in your abdominal area. Weight gain in this area raises your risk for heart disease and diabetes.
  • Mental health. Being bombarded with stress hormones creates a constant state of tension and anxiety. Over time this can set you up for depression, headaches or other problems, especially if they run in the family. Also, because your body is in a heightened state of arousal, you may have trouble sleeping.

That’s something to share with you and to enrich my knowledge=)


Quotes of The Day March 14, 2012

Filed under: Just Be Yourself — juzburself @ 1:05 am

“It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change.” Charles Darwin